Knowing What We Want

A wise mentor has been helping me to see how we humans struggle to really know what we want. Oh how easy it is to see the lack of clarity in others as the strong inner judge chatters away! That aside I of course know it's better to see and work with the habit within myself.

There seems to be a cycle: a declaration is made about a particular thing, then the mind turns over the original declaration, sometimes completely, in order to handle attitudes such as fear, laziness, pride, ego,  or psychological pattern. That's behavior in opposition to intention and values. Tony Robbins calls this self-sabotage. Indeed it is!

Information gained from spiritual study can feel like a film of oil floating on top of a greater amount of water. It does not and cannot penetrate into the depth, especially if there is a strong current of subconscious material to contend with. Sometimes (oftentimes) studying our trigger and behavior patterns is essential to move out of old patterns, to stir things up in order to allow for the growth potential as wisdom meets our uniqueness. What source material our "flaws" can be!

Life Cairns: Knee-Jerk Negativity

Life Cairns: Knee-Jerk Negativity

Current Study With My Inquiry Partner: Power Of Now by Eckhart Tolle

Eckhart Tolle's Power Of Now is the work I'm engaged with alongside my inquiry partner.  I've read and listened to the audio version of this book many, many times.  What's new is that drawing is included when approaching each chapter. It's mere sketching and coloring but it feels as though the creative action is constructive, helpful.

Searching For Sugar Man

If you haven't seen the documentary Searching For Sugar Man, do so!  And resist the urge to read anything about the story prior to viewing the film.  That said, I wish to share a quote from the tail-end of the film:

What he's demonstrated very clearly is that you have a choice.  He took all that torment, all that agony, all that confusion and pain, and he transformed it into something beautiful.  He's like a silk worm, you know. You take this raw material and you transform it.  And you come out with something that wasn't there before.  Something beautiful.  Something perhaps transcendent.  Something perhaps eternal. Insofar as he does that, I think he's representative of the human spirit, of what's possible.  That you have a choice.  "And this has been my choice, to give you Sugar Man."  Now have you done that?  Ask yourself.

- Rick Emmerson on his friend Sixto Rodriguez in the documentary Searching For Sugar Man

A Beginning, A Middle, An End

Within myself recently I've noticed a frustration with others' inability to accept the reality of things having a beginning, a middle and an end.  After a stretch with this experience popping up every so often I now see my own discord with the nature of change.  I want it in ways, yet desire control.  My idea to move forward with understanding is twofold: embrace a single quote by the Greek philosopher Heraclitus and get outside, out of climate control and man-made comforts, rest with nature, see what it has to teach.

NOTHING ENDURES BUT CHANGE.